she's sad...

she-whispers:

she’s sad because her strenuous efforts towards harmony in family relations backfired, and all she’s ever stood for, all that she has, is “family”. it is something that has its origins planted so deep in her so to witness her hurting because of it is devastating. she’s sad because her hopes and dreams are being shattered every day by looking at me and being reminded of the lack of something to show for. I have nothing. I’ve given her nothing. and sometimes, I feel like nothing compared to what she’s given me simply by being in my life. she’s sad because she’s a working woman who has a job that barely pays and she comes home to an empty home even when there are people occupied in their rooms. she lays in bed watching her shows by herself. she runs her errands alone. she eats alone. all these things that can easily be overlooked for me is different for her because even as I put myself in her shoes, I felt the loneliness sting me. she’s sad because love fucked her over and she blames the risk she took for it years ago, dropping all she had here to be with my father- and look at where we are- is a thought she holds behind her eyelids. and I hate how she regrets it because I know if she didn’t make that decision, I wouldn’t be here as happy as I am but my happiness doesn’t transcend into her life the way I hope it would because it’s not tangible to hers; and I can’t help but wonder what if she didn’t risk it, what if I didn’t turn out to be the person that I am now, living the life I’m living… would she be happy, then? 

and before you know it, the guilt swallowed me whole.

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